If only we could just compromise;
                                    you could write and I could live..






It's been too long, I miss this. I miss us.
Day after day of the usual, the usual... without you.

You know how people go through their lives like a routine, they stop living. They breathe, they eat, they survive. They don't live. When did I forget to live?
Where have I forgotten my essence?
Did I leave you behind?


Maybe I need to stop, close my eyes, let the world stop and get away.
I need to find you.
I can't lose you forever.

When you write, I live...

Like Old Times..

Just for you,
Though long overdue...


I know why I need you now.

I've been feeling so lost, I'm always so lost. I don't know where I should be, I don't know where I belong.

All of this and so much more,
when you're not around.


You remind me of life as it was, that how it is right now isn't that bad, and what it could be. could be awesome.
That I have my wall.

I don't know who I've been for sometime now. I don't know whether I'm at the right place or people.

You're my wall.
A wall I can carry around.
A wall I can bang my head into when the universe is too much.
And I get my head organised again.
I feel myself again.
I know where I am.

You're family,
You're so much more.
Be there,
Always.

Without wax,
~R

The wait.

It  eludes me
That sign beyond the line.
Maimed at Nowhere
Where nothing is mine,
I wait,
To reach the other side
Where neon shines,
And I am time.

So, how will the Story start?
Where will I begin?

Maybe I'll know
When the wind stops blowing,
When the rain ends
It ceases to sing.
Maybe I'll know then,
Maybe then it'll begin.

Dreams.Awakening.Wishes.Neon.Belief.

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See you on the other side.. 

As time begins to blur..

Have you ever had a dream you felt was real? Have you ever felt that you are dreaming when everything is real?

I live my dream every single day and we're both so real and so out of place. Together we're a dream, where I'm very much awake, a dream yet out of reach.

Life's never been this empty, this small and this unwilling to cross the divide and yet dying for the unknown..